This afternoon I took you on a date, just the two of us. It was beautiful and perfect in every way. First we went to PetSmart because it’s your favorite and you told everyone there about your bearded dragon, Elfie. And about how you dream of owning all kinds of snakes and lizards someday. You lit up the room and made everyone’s day. When you told the sweet lady behind the counter that she had nice eyes, her whole spirit lifted. You have a way of doing that.
Then you chose to get a cupcake and we sat at a tiny table and talked of dragons and lizards and dinos. Just you and me bud. You had a chocolate cupcake and I had a banana one.
I told that you deserve the best and that whatever you want to do in life that I was cheering you on. You told me that I was an awesome date and that I looked nice and that I smelled nice. And you had such a pure, innocence about the way you spoke to me that I promised myself I would do everything in my power to protect that sweet spirit in you.
At some part of the date you looked at me and said that I had your heart. And you asked me how God knew that you wanted me for your mama.
I wish you could see…for even just a moment how much I love you. I wish you could step into my shoes and see the amount that is there. It’s more than you can imagine. And Aiden…there isn’t a thing on earth that could change it.
I love that your wonder and boy-filled spirit is in full swing. I love that you stick snakes and worms in your pockets and that you treat me and your sisters with tenderness. I love that you are sensitive and brave all in one.
I love everything about you kid. I am the luckiest on the planet that I get to be your mama. What a gift.
Aiden, there aren’t the words for how you have wrecked my heart. Wrecked in a good way. Changed forever by you buddy.
Thank you for today. It was perfect.