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I pretty rarely have any kind of conflict in my life. I stay way away from it because I generally don’t handle it all that well. It makes me feel really uneasy.
With that said,
there is someone that I have to work with myself daily not to dislike greatly. This girl hurt me and its a daily choice of forgiveness in my heart. A daily dying to myself.
Don’t you wish it were so easy to forgive once and be done?
It’s really ugly sometimes.
Sometimes I have a fear of her being successful.
Sometimes I have a desire to be successful to prove something to her.
Sometimes I have a desire to feel beautiful so that I don’t feel threatened by her.
I know when I worry about this it is just hurting me…. I mean she’s not sitting around thinking about me. I know I have freedom when I forgive. When I love her.
There are some days that are really hard to do that.
There are days that I have to consciously decide to not be bitter at this person. I choose love day after day. I choose forgiveness day after day
And maybe somewhere along the way it will become “natural” and organic? Someday it will be less of a choice. And more of a natural reaction. This is my hope. and my prayer. I don’t want to carry it. I don’t want to have to always have to “choose” love….I want it to be who I am…even with people that I would normally dislike.
” He restores what has been broken and heals what has been wounded. I don’t have peace because I figured it all out. I have peace because I believe in Christ.”
I am Casey Leigh. I love to share my life through this little blog. When you stop by you can expect pieces of my perspective on life, faith, kids, marriage, loss... with touches of art, creative inspiration, fashion, projects & things I love along the way. My gift to you, our story...