I am really happy & fulfilled in my marriage.
But the thing is…it hasn’t always been easy.
Before bed last night I came up close to Chris and said ” thank you. thank you for choosing THIS life. Life with me. Kids with me. Mess with me. all of it. Thank you.
Thank you for choosing me back when it was harder. Thanks for sticking with me.”
The thing about marriage is that at any moment either one can just check out. Or just choose a different life all together. So in a way, everyday is a choice. Today I choose you. THIS life. These kids & this house.
I have been with Chris 7 years.
7 years and we have changed so much. As we both changed and grew and understood each other better, it was like a whirlpool. Just getting better & better. Easier along the way. We still are learning & growing & changing. Still balancing work. kids. and finding time to connect day after day. Communication is big.
I thought (before marriage) that when I got married I would no longer be insecure. Or that somehow I would be fixed. Just suddenly and magically complete. I thought you suddenly felt beautiful all the time. Felt loved all the time.
That was certainly a rude awakening my first year(s) of being married. Not because of him. But because of me. I had a very unrealistic idea.
I have since learned that no matter how many times he tells me what I want to hear…the answer is with me. Meaning that I have to love myself. He can’t do it for me.
I am thankful for him.
Thankful that we choose. Thankful for THIS life.
This life with him by my side.
Thankful in the hard times he chose me. This life.