I love the weather right now.
The warm sun on my toes and the crisp air makes me so happy.
The smell of summer, the sound of sprinklers and the taste of ice pops.
Ainsleigh tonight has that sticky “summer” feel of grass, popsicles and the smell of watermelon . LOVE.
There is something stirring in me.
I can’t quite pinpoint it, but something is stirring in my heart.
I have been thinking a lot lately, really the past 2 months about what I believe.
I have a fear of hurting anyone.
And sometimes that holds me back.
For some reason I feel like over the past year or two it has been a very concrete time in my life where everything I grew up believing….I was able to truly stand firm and say…yes, I truly do believe that.
Or no, I no longer see life that way.
It was me, alone, standing before God saying here is what I believe to be true.
I just wanted to write out that if you are struggling…if you are wrestling with your faith or your place- I can tell you that through my greatest heartaches, I truly found my faith.
I grew up in a christian home….but it wasn’t until I was alone and in a place of being tested that I said…. wow, yes…I am actually living out what I have always said to be true.
I guess it was then that I TRULY knew that yes, I really believe that.
Choosing Christ is saying goodbye to the old me.
Dying to those fleshly desires, dying to the selfishness, dying to the quick reactions and the judgements.
I am new, because of Him.
I am thankful for mercy and new days.
Aiden has started asking on his own to say prayers at different times of the day.
Nothing will make me weep like that.