I have gotten quite a few emails asking me how I deal with the fear of being pregnant again after miscarriage. Well- I will be honest, for me..at times…it is paralyzing. I understand that many women deal with fear in pregnancy but when you have walked through a miscarriage, thought everything was great and have been blind sited…. it has the potential to really mess with you.
I have my *almost* 13 week sono tomorrow (Friday) and this is the one everything went wrong at last time.
So being that I am terrified….I thought a perfect opportunity to tell you that I take it day by day.
I have fully prepared myself to walk in that sono tomorrow and see a little baby with no heartbeat. A beautiful little soul with hands and feet, just like last time.
No warning signs.
But you know what that is doing? It’s robbing me of my joy…my excitement for this beautiful life growing in me.
So I am choosing to fight it.
I had no signs of anything being wrong…. morning sickness was still there, no cramping, no nothing….just went in for a check up- no heartbeat and the baby had stopped growing 2 weeks before.
I have rested a lot over the past 3 months on Romans 8:28.
I know He has purpose in even the things I cannot understand.
I have to believe that and rest in that.
So, my friends…tomorrow is a big day. If all goes well this weekend I will be entering my 2nd trimester! **pinch me**