The other night I went upstairs where Chris was working. He had stopped for a moment to play on the piano.
Sat down and watched.
I watched as his fingers slid across the keys.
Chris can play music by ear. meaning if he hears a song on the radio he can come home and play it perfectly on the piano or guitar. Its incredible.
Honestly it has been forever since i just stopped, slowed down and noticed him. Noticed his gifts.
As he was playing i started praying “Lord let me delight in him…. please let me never take for granted all of his gifts that you have blessed him with. He is so talented. Let that take my breath away for years to come.”
It’s easy after 7 years to stop noticing.
Life gets busy, kids fill your time.
But i don’t want to stop.
want to really see him.
I want to see his beautiful videos.
I want to see his almond shaped beautiful eyes.
I want to see his gifts in music.
I want to see him loving our babies.
I want him to notice me.
I want to be his everything and take his breath away.
Before I got married, I thought once you got married all your insecurities went away. Mine didn’t. I was insecure before marriage and I am insecure now. Constantly battling “am I enough?”
But you know what.
Chris is enough. He is MORE than enough- he is everything I could hope for….he should always feel that from me.
Chris, this ones for you today- I love you. You make me so happy.
Happy Valentine’s Day.