It’s time for coffee (hot chocolate for me). If you were coming over for a hot chocolate date I would probably tell you
“I’m itching to be pregnant again”
I’m not in any rush….I know I just had Ainsleigh :)….and Aiden not too much before that. I also know that some people are desperately trying for their first…so this is not a heavy post. It’s just that Chris and I have always felt called to have a big family. I have absolutely no idea how we will provide for them all (I know if God calls us to have many children then He will provide)….and medically with c-sections not exactly sure how many I will be “allowed” to have….but I am ready for another :).
A few people recently have commented that Chris & I seem to “embrace” our children as they are….I think that is very beautifully put. I know people could give me a list of reasons why Aiden shouldn’t have a paci or drink his milk from bottles, or why Ainsleigh should be sleeping through the night on a schedule, or why Aiden should have a strict bedtime…the list goes on.
That just isn’t how we do things.
So you would probably see Aiden walking around with his pasie and blankies and cuddling me asking me for a bottle. And sweet Ainsleigh, this little lady is all smiles.
My babies will only be little once & embracing that is exactly what we do.
There are moments that I can tell Aiden needs a little extra love… he sees me talking sweet to Ainsleigh and will lower his head a little. I would probably tell you that last night was one of those times.
I handed Ainsleigh off to Chris, scooped up Aiden and took him into Ainsleigh’s room where our rocking chair is. I have really bad singing voice but since Aiden doesnt seem to mind… I put him in my lap and rocked/sang to him. Everytime I would start to slow down he would do the sign for “more”….
I can’t tell you how I cherish these times. I just want to freeze time, soak them into the deepest parts of my soul. I would do anything for my babies.
I want lots of them.
I want to love them well, raise them, give them the light of Jesus and send them into the world to change it.
You would see in my eyes that my littles, they are the light of our lives.
I would also probably tell you that my marriage is SOAKING up having Christopher home. We all needed him home, but I really did. Obviously this new journey we are on is scary (post here)….and most days we are in a really scary place with money but really I couldn’t put a price on the moments we are having with Christopher around. It’s bringing a calm, a peace to a very long/hard year.
Laughter. Snuggles. Silly moments.
We needed that.
I am thankful.
If we had hot chocolate, what would you tell me?!