Early morning. Chris got up around 7:30 for an early meeting. I wake easily so I sat up.
Both babies still sound asleep. Ains in her crib, aiden next to me. There is a window in our room and the sun was peeking through perfectly on his face. I thought about the laundry still sitting in the dryer from
last night and the pile of dishes in the sink. But I couldn’t stop staring at him.
all that stuff can wait.
I laid back down, pulled the covers up to my chin and watched Aiden.
His long lashes closed over those big blue eyes. His sweet cheeks and his lips pursed out.
Someday, someday he’ll be big– he’ll be as tall as his daddy, hair on those cheeks, rougher skin. I won’t be able to pull him close to me- hold him to my chest and sleep with him in my arms. He will outgrow this,
I laid there praying over him through teary eyes until about 8:30. Then I went and checked the video monitor- ainsleigh, asleep. I didn’t care. Went and got her- got her a milk and pulled her into my bed. She was giggling and snuggling close.
I smelled her neck, her cheeks. All 3 of us slept till past 9:30. Both of their hot cheeks near mine, watching their chests move up and down and sweet little breath flowing from their tongues.
Time was standing still for a few hours.
Being a mama is hard.
There are tantrums, tired nights, morning sickness that lasts all day….
But I just can’t shake the thought of what an incredible blessing I have been given.
It changes how I see everything.
God trusted me with these sweet little spirits.
And it’s moving so fast.